Short article from The SCOAN Publication: Faith Cometh!
In the Bible, Paul was given a thorn in the flesh that he asked God to remove three times. What is the thorn in your flesh?
What I want to do is not what I am doing. Where I want to go is not where I am going. What I want to eat is not what I am eating. What I want to wear is not what I am wearing. I think this is the greatest thorn; I don’t know how to go about this. It’s like there are chains on my legs you cannot see. When I make an attempt to go somewhere I would like to go, there is a force. There is a padlock in my mouth that you cannot see. You see me open my mouth but when I want to eat what I would love to eat, there is a padlock; I would not be able to open it. There is a chain on my hands you cannot see. I too cannot see it but when I am about to stretch my hand to do certain things, I will feel that chain. Personally – that is it.
I would like to wear a very big agbada and very big cap so that you will know that I am the General Overseer of The Synagogue. When I go to my wardrobe and see a beautiful dress, I want to wear it, but there is a chain – a restriction. So, when people say I am humble – I am not the one humble. I would have loved to be very proud, to show off. I would have loved it, but something I cannot see keeps restricting me not to. I would have loved when I am coming for people to see me – but I don’t know… Some people keep saying that I am humble; I am not. Humility is not my work. It is not my work at all. I have some big suits; I say to my boys: “Help me iron this suit for tomorrow’s service”. But when the Sunday service comes, in the morning when I stretch my hand to take the suit, there will be a restriction. I will now be told, “Go and wear this one”.
Look at what I ate now – gari and ground-nuts, and there is a lot of international food here. There is no vehicle I want to use that I cannot use but I find myself entering a coaster bus, a public bus. So, this is a thorn. I see it as a thorn but it is not a thorn. To me, I see it as punishment, but it is not punishment, because it helps me not to live a life of sin, a life of my own; it’s all about Jesus.
So this is why when I see somebody doing wrong, I will not open my mouth to judge the person, because the good I am doing. I am not the one doing it. I am being restricted. I am being compelled to do right. If I now see somebody doing the wrong thing and begin to say, “You are a sinner! You are a sinner!” it means I am saying I am the one doing good.
SOURCE: Faith Cometh, Issue 2